I'm Sorry

Now it's just too late, we can't go back

I'm sorry, I can't be perfect 

不是不爱，只怕有一天会。。。。

对不起你

 by

陈慧恬

你总习惯听我发脾气 你总习惯原谅我的任性
You used to see me get angry, You used to forgive my childishness 

我想着爱情那里出错 我最常对你说对不起
I thinking what's wrong with this love, and I always apologize

你最常说没关系

But you always said it's  forgivable

不是我不爱你 别瞎猜
It's not I'm not loving you, please don't make false assumption

不是我想放弃 只是很怕会辜负了你
It's not I'm giving up, just worried it will hurt you more

我没有你眼中那么完美

I'm not as perfect as what you see

不是我不相信 有未来
It's not that I'm don't have confidence towards our future

不是我想逃避 只是会担心
Just don't wanna escape and fear of

有一天你会生气 我的任性
that one day, you will started to get angry with my attitude

因为越爱越想要呼吸
Because the more I love you, I need to breathe

只怕对不起你会变成伤害
Just scared of hurting you through apology

（如果真的伤害了你 对不起）
(If I really did, I'm sorry)

你最爱聆听我的声音 刻意回避那传来的耳语
You used to love to hear my voice, deliberately avoid the whisper that coming

你常常要我静静的看着你 你说你不容易会灰心
You always want me to look at you, You said you will not easily get discouraged

我其实没有信心
Just myself, don't have confidence

Abnormality @ Extraordinary

Different lecturers taught me different things, even it is the same subject. I love the previous lecturer, but she is just too strict in some aspects. The present one, she is someone different, but like what people usually say "Don't judge a book by just looking at it cover". Ya, so I still cannot do any judgement based on the first two lecturers she conducted previously. I been thinking for so long, but I finally with the support from some of my friends, I gained my courage to take the challenge. 

"Retaking my Public Speaking"

If this happened five years ago, I don't think I will dare to do it. But, today, after so much presentation I had done in previous semesters, I am no longer afraid of presenting myself in front of audience. Finally, I gain my confidence in delivering my ideas and comments in front of public. But, if my ex-classmates read this post, I can imagine what will they think of me.

For this semester, the public speaking course outline is some sort different from the previous one. More speeches required but less activities in the class. I still missing the time where we spending our night with a mother, yap, Madam Che Ku is so funny, caring. She like to post out some funny videos to light up the class. As a result, I laughed like mad people, jumping off the chair and having stomachache. As for Miss Shahida, no doubt, she is also a good lecturer. She is so humble and cute, her clumsiness sometimes make her students laugh for non-stop. I love her way of teaching. The facial expression, body language and all about her personality.

For my first class with her, I did my first introductory speech, not introducing myself, but introducing someone that I first met in the class. I think I did a good job, I gave myself an "above average" grade. At least, I did what she asked me to do. Create attraction, and I could see people laughing at me, when I'm actually doing jokes. 

My next speech will be an introductory speech again, but this time is about myself. Miss Shahida warned us not to say something which is so common and general but something special, extraordinary about myself. I squeezing my brain for the last few days, I could not think something special about myself, even my abnormality. But, at last, this evening, during my ride going back to home, I think of something, ya something, which makes me so different from other people. 

Hey if you guys want to know what it is, come to MAKMAL BAHASA on Sunday, 4 - 5 pm to get the answer..=P   See you there...

I am different because...... XD

I Dreamed A Dream that Bring Me To Life

"I Dreamed A Dream"

How many dreams will a person make within a year ? Me...I think I had many dreams, uncountable but I hardly can remember any of it.

I seldom took my dream seriously, should I said, I usually don't dream ? Nope, I think I had but I just don't remember the day after. But, two days ago, that was a something I couldn't believe. Why ? This dream was so real, till I woke up immediately from it. SHOCKED !!!

........ (a story)........

I been wondering about it since years ago, but my rationality just can't get me an answer for it. By the time, I figured it out, there must be something else that make me felt my answer was bias and unfair. But, finally I got it through a dream. How true is it ? ^.^ Is that the answer ? Or just GOD wanted to lead me to the road that I should take. But, since I want it so badly, and finally I got it, just it not real enough, but I can still accept it.

I should let off. I should stop being silly. I should stop living in my imaginary world, think everything the way I like. I should return back to the reality. Since, it will not be a fruitful ending, why must I still hoping for it to happen, cheating myself that "there will be a miracle". But, the dream really refresh, wake me up, bringing me back to my life.

"If you can dream it, you can do it"

But does it true ? People said if you keep thinking of "it", sometimes "it" may appear in your dream. I do believe it because one of my friend, he is a ZOMBIE-fan, for no reason, he will always dreamed of that creatures even in whatever situation, as long as the main characters will be him and the zombie(s). LoL. So, will it be possible that I'm thinking too much, and as a result I got it. Perhaps yes, perhaps no... 

"Bring Me To Life"

I'm so sorry to start my year, with this post = something that may make you blur and annoy, but really, there is nothing else I want to share except this since there is no one would understand it except my own self. I got no other choice, but to post it out. =)

I should be thankful to dream a dream that bring me back to life.