A Brief Comeback

Wow...! I can't believe I was away from my blog for almost two (2) years and a half. It's really true that once you get into a working life, you hardly had time for your own-self. I was browsing through my facebook status and I realized how time flies! ... how far has my life has progress? People enter & leave the circle of my life. They're some positively memorable yet they're still few leave me scars.

My life has just opened a new chapter in 2013. I left Innovasi Samudra Sdn Bhd on the last day of 2012. There's lot of lessons I learned during my days in my previous company. The last one standing will be the sole survivor! If you're not tough & strong enough, the game is not for you. Phew! Shall I just talk about those great beginning I had with my new company that time, which is SUN. In order for me, not to forget about my 1st day entering SUN, I purposely snapped a photo of myself before going up the office (I'm not a selfie freak =P)

I looks fat & chubby as a result of not good in selfie!

...and now unbelievably I was with SUN for almost two (2) years and I believe the days will be continuously counting. It rather late night, and also not in a mood of further writing. Perhaps in the future I'll write & share my experiences and amazing time in SUN!

L.I.F.E

Life is equal:

You'll never gain if you don't feel the pain.

You'll never appreciate if you don't lost it.

You'll never feel happy if you didn't feel sad.

You'll never learn if you don't fall.

Isn't it ?

Life is fair:

If you lost something, in a moment later you'll get something else.

If you feel sad for now but later you'll get happy over another matter.

If you make a mistake, you'll learn and avoid it in the future.

Things always come for a reason but you must be patience enough to wait for it to come.

Don't you agree ?

Q : What's actually making life difficult and miserable ?

A : Human mindset & behavior.

 Life is short.

Do what you wish to do.

Be yourself, don't be what people want you to be.

You can be humble but not low self esteem.

Don't think too much as nothing much for you to think about.

Mistakes are common but just because of your anxiety it turns into problems.

Speak and act using your heart. 

Rejection is not failure but rejection is the pre-step for you to go further.

If you scare of failure, that's the failure you been hiding from yourself.

Don't always hurt people with your words because one day, you'll regret as no one left for you to hurt.

If you don't appreciate, please don't regret if one day, it run away from you.

People be patience to you isn't because they're stupid but in fact, you're stupid because you thought they're stupid since they do it because they do love you and avoid hurting you.

If you want, say it, not waiting for it to appear blindly in front of you.

Put yourself into other shoes before you start commenting on them.

Words can be as sweet as sugar, but also can be as spice as chillies.

Words thrown out cannot be taken back.

You can be the winner all the time as one day, you'll turn into a full time loser.

Don't hint but be straightforward if you wish to get something.

Don't ask for what people can give you, ask what you can give to people.

Don't talk, but take action.

Don't look down on people because there's a lot of people on your top eye-ing on you.

If you can't help, just stop at where you should stop because the more you do, the worst it goes.

Respect people if you want people to respect you, if you don't, please don't expect for it.

Don't look for perfection but satisfaction.

That's what life mean to me.

I don't dare to say, I'm perfectly fit into the above lines.

 But, it's just a sharing.

We're human, we have mistake(s).

But, just let it only happened for once.

Truth @ 事实

How important is THE TRUTH (事实）to me ? 

I am isn't a lawyer, I don't need it for my law cases to make clarification.

I am isn't a police, I don't need it to arrest sinners.

I am isn't a judge, I don't need it to decide those punishment. 

In fact, I just out of those thousand millions human being that been living in this so-called true world.

Everyday, in every minute and second, people run in and out, front and back, to find the truth in their respective lives. But, when the truth had revealed, they started to change their mind, hoping it to remain hidden because the truth is always hurtful and offensive. Isn't....

"The truth is cruel"

In most situation, people always asking for the truth, but how far can a person accept the truth? When it comes to the truth moment, that's the moment, we escape from our imagination. Now, only we realize that what we had been imagined and expected, isn't the truth.

If that's the case, why not we just let it remain unrevealed? Choose to continue to live in our world of imagination, for least, we can make ourselves happier. Even though ...

 "Three things cannot be long hidden: Sun, Moon and the truth" 

                                                                                                                         by Buddha 

Having good vision isn't a good thing to myself. I tend to learn the truth through my eyes, because I know vision doesn't lie. Truth doesn't reveal through human expression or body language but basically on their belongings (evidence). Every human wear it own mask and never take it down unless it is necessary. Even the closest person in your life will not reveal his/her true self to you.

"Man is least himself when he talks in his own person.

Give him a mask, and he will tell you the truth."

                                                                                                                                by Oscar Wilde

Let's go through these examples:

Case 1 : Husband and Wife

Mr.Ivan and Mrs.Janet had been married for fifteen years. Mr.Ivan is a successful businessman, earns a lot and capable to live with a luxurious life with his wife. But every rich man comes with a bad habit - play around with women. Every night when her husband came back from work, Mrs.Janet could smelled different kinds of perfume in her husband neither coat or clothes. She suspected her husband been playing around with other women but she chose not to go further because she know, she can't accept the truth. On the other hand, Mr.Ivan knew his wife is suspecting on him for having affairs, but he chose not to bring out the case.

Even your life partner may lie to you even though you think yourself been knowing he/she long enough? In this case, most people will think Mrs.Janet is stupid, but in my opinion, I think she is tough and patience enough. She chose to cover up the truth because she imagine for another truth beneath. She say to herself, Mr.Ivan isn't loving those women he been playing with, they're just a passerby in his life, and the true woman that remain forever in his heart is still herself, the one that she proposed to marry with. And surprisingly, Mr.Ivan started to spend less hour in bars and pubs and more with Mrs.Janet because at last, he finds out how beautiful and lovely his wife is to himself compare to those other women who just love his money more than himself. 

So, what is truth in this case? Isn't it cruel and hurtful ? Or did you see it as beautiful ? You judge it yourself. 

Case 2 : Mother and Son

Mei Yi is a strong and successful woman. As usual, God is fair, when you are granted with a good career, you are going to miss out something else in your life. As what people always say, life will never go perfect. Admit it since that's truth. Since she spends and focuses most of her time on her work, she hardly can spend her time on her other half, as a consequences she failed to get married. But thankfully, she adopted a little boy who was neglected by her best friend ten years ago who accidentally got pregnant after meeting an irresponsible man. She raised up the little boy like she gave birth to him. And now, the little boy had already grown up and started to question the origin of himself. Should Mei Yi lie to him as she is his true biological mother or should she revealed the truth, that his parent decided to give up on him even though he is still an embryo?

Isn't the truth in this case is not that important and should remain covered as the boy can still live in his beautiful world and treat Mei Yi as his own mom who loves him a lot even though the truth is she isn't. Why not to let the hidden truth remain hidden since it isn't important to let it unrevealed? This is not about fair or unfair but worth or not worth? What do you think?

Case 3 : Boy and Girl

Joe had been sweet-talked to Lily even though the Joe isn't really love the Lily. Joe know who is his true love and Lily know that Joe isn't loving her. But both of them tend to neglect the truth, because they enjoyed the process of sweet talking to each other.  Even though Lily know, one day Joe will find his true love and their current relationship will be over but she doesn't care and continue to appreciate those time that she have with Joe until the day arrive. 

And now what's truth about? Should they bring it out or shouldn't? What's your opinion here? 

Case 4 : Friends

Kate and Jessica are good friends. They been together sharing their juicy stories most of their time. But honestly, are all being shared or just a portion? Kate is the treasurer of the class and when Teachers' Day is around the corner, the whole class is planning to buy a present for their favorite teacher.  Since Kate is the money holder, so she was assigned to buy the present and collects money from the rest. One day, Jessica went to Kate's room for an outing but accidentally she found out Kate was cheating to the rest of the class. She had collected extra money from the class and spent it on herself. She feel disappointing with her best friend, Kate and confuse with herself. Should she tell her classmates about Kate's act and confront her? 

Isn't this is another kind of truth? Closest one is not trust-able?

In the end, what can you conclude about truth? Isn't truth is beautiful? Isn't truth is ugly? Or you have another definition for it.

Are you one of them? And I tell you, I am one of them for now.

"Truth is the beginning of every good to the gods, and of every good to man."

                                                                                                                                                by Plato

... how do I wish myself to be less sensitive towards my environment?
 ... how do I wish myself to be less observant and see things as simple as possible?
 

But I can't runaway from it, and today, I just found another truth in my life, which I should force myself to accept it. I wish I could still live in my own dream but unfortunately, I was woken up. It is hurtful and will remained hurtful but it just another lesson for the truth in my life. I knew it but I chose not to go deep into that. But since my gas tank is running out of air, it's time for me to dive up to the surface, the reality world. 

We people know that's not gonna happen but we still hope to lie and live in our imagination because imagination is always beautiful as lie is beauty. But how long can a sweet dream last? And now it's my time to wake up as the truth had revealed. 

And you? How about you? Have you encountered your truth or you neglect or avoid it? You may have another story of your own. Remember ...

"The truth are not for all men, but only for those who seek it."

                                                                                                                        by Ayn Rand

My Big, Graduation Day

It's been a long time, I didn't write something for my blog. It also reflects how busy I am for the last three months. Working life indeed, totally different from my student life. It is like an account, work always debit and credit. The account will never stop until the day we quit the job. But, fortunately I still doing the things that I love to do.

Although it's too late for this, but it never be too late for something if you willing to do it.

Back to the purpose of this blog. After a hard work of three years, finally the day  had arrived and  it was 2nd October 2011. When I started the journey, I had 0 % interest towards it, 0% support from my family especially my parents that I will complete it. Thankfully, I got this 100% spirit and sweet, helpful coursemates that make my life more meaningful, and build up my confidence that I can do it.

Coming from a over-protective family, I was being protected by my parents, and people always describe me as an useless person. I was not allowed to participate in any school trips/activities. I was not allowed to hang out with my friends. Due to this, I always wonder what the actual real outside world is, how challenging it is ? 

The day I graduated, means a lot to me. (1) The day allow me to prove to my parents that I can do what they always think I cannot do. Although they are not very happy when I told them the real purpose why I chose to take the course at the first place, but I do really hope they will understand in future. Overall, they are still proud of me. (2) The day allow me to see how many true friends I have, I'm not asking for graduation gift, but how many of them can really remember and greet me, or come over and celebrate the day with me. Thanks to all of you, I appreciate it.

Sitting inside the hall waiting for my scroll (credit to Wei Khang)

A total of 8 courses were in the last session, and Marine Biology was the third last. In other words, we have to wait, wait, wait for our turns to come. Too bad, I gave my camera to my daddy, if not ...hehe... =)

Received my scroll from Pro-Chancellor (credit to Yee Kuen)

I guess my name is hard to pronounce and that is why people always pronounce my last name wrongly. Even on my graduation day, when I received my scroll. Arghhhh...Why ? Why can't you guys get it correct ? Sob T.T. 

The session took about 3 hours, started at 2.30 and ended at 5.30. After we came out from the hall, we're welcomed by people, who we doesn't know, and most importantly is the mother of Marine Biology, Prof. Madya Dr. Siti Aishah Abdullah, my coordinator, my FYP supervisor. Even though, she unable to be in the hall for the day due to her medical appointment, but she did come over to celebrate with us our final moment. 

Dr. Siti and her 2009/10 Marine Bio "Gang"

Not to forget here, our long lost senior, Jin Lig. He kept his promise, he said he will be back during our graduation day. Unbelievable, he is really here to celebrate our big day with us. Thank you Jin Lig. And I gue3ss he gonna M.I.A again.

Jin Lig and I

Next, my BioM juniors, the most memorable graduation gift I ever received. A hand made cards from 7 of them. To make 12 different cards with different designs are not an easy job, but they really did it. Appreciate you people card, now it is hanging in front of my working desk. Sweet. 

Wan Chyng and Yalweis Hauk

Jennifer

The next two people that I want to thanks here are Naja and Steven Kam. Naja, thanks for your guidance during my months in Innovasi Samudra, although you are no longer my colleague, but the bond still there because you're like my god sister and senior. Really appreciate that you willing to come over despite of busy schedule and distance to celebrate my great day with me.

And as for Steven Kam, if I want to write out what you ever help me for me to complete my graduation day, it will be a ten pages blog. Really thanks you for killing your patient to help me to take my jubah and share your room with me. And your SUNFLOWER. Thanks friend. If you think you're imperfect, but to me, you're perfect. No worries. You're great. I'll keep my promise, see you during your convocation.

Naja

Steven Kam 

And lastly, my parents are the greatest people that ever exist in my life. Truthfully, without them, I will not be here as who I am today. Really have to thanks them for coming, all over from Taiping to Kuala Terengganu just to attend my convocation. I proud to see them proud with me. 

My Mum & My Dad

After all, I will not miss out this person. He is a part of my life. He is the one that light out my life. He is the one that taught me the beauty of nature. He is the one that inspire me the most. I love you. Hope to see you again. =)

Wild, Crazy, Fun Nite

Close my eyes, open my eyes, unbelievably I had already passed five weeks, and what's left is only another three weeks. People always said "Those painful days are hard to pass, but those happy days will pass quickly without notice". I believed it, and now, I feeling it. 

Before I went to Innovasi Samudra Sdn. Bhd, month ago, I kept on thinking about the working politics, gossips in the office and etc. but I was proved wrong after I spent my days in the company. The people here are actually nicer than I expected. Being the youngest and raw to the industry, my colleagues never stop to teach me about new things. Although we do gossips among each other, but it's all about ... (something I cannot post here, faham-faham ya).

We cared for each other, we are united. Not like what I had watched in the TV previously, everyone want to get the favor of the employer, but this never happen in Innovasi Samudra. I love to work with them, even there is only five of us, but I think it is enough for a company like Innovasi Samudra.

Our friendship is undeniably strong even though I just be with them for just a month. I feel like I am just the youngest brother in the family, and I got this two sisters and two brothers from different races.

If someone asked me what is my greatest day during my internship, I think/sure it would be 02.06.2011. It was a crazy, wild, fun night that I spent with my colleagues at Greenbox. The first week, salary week, with a bunch of money, we planned some activities to strengthen our friendship. Although, the Karaoke plan nearly failed, but at last it did ON. 

We sang from 7.30 p.m. till 11.00 p.m. Temporarily we put aside our workloads and focused on our singing. Lin and I were called as "Perampas Mikrofon" by Najar, since she figured that both of us like to grab the control and sing every song that been selected by others. (p/s: Najar, we had no choice, since the songs that you guys select are so ngam to both of us + we both know how to sing the song).

Lin was the "Entertainer of the Night" to me alone, since his "NYANYI X BERPERASAN" make me laugh like hell once he started to sing. On the other hand, I was "Entertainer of the Night" to the others, since I laughed like mad fella once Lin started to sing. Not to forget, we enjoyed the night too, cause it is GREENBOX, so we got BUFFET to attack and I found out, we shared one more similarity, big EATER.

Najar posed with her "Yummy" look

 

 

 

 

 

Lin and I "Perampas Mikrofon"

Kwok Wah, Aini and her husband

I laughed till I sat on the floor

Lin left earlier (about 10.10 pm) due to his other commitments, and left four of us. Kwok Wah, Najar and I left at 11.00 pm and left Aini and her husband continued to sing (till 1.30 am). We (Kwok Wah, Najar and I) sang our final song "Gemilang" from Jac before we left. 

The night was full of happiness, laughter and all sort of smiling stuffs that is why I called it as Wild, Crazy, Fun nite.

p/s: I'm sorry I can't post much pictures due to the poor internet connection.

My Own Stories of Ais Kacang

"Memory is a way of holding onto the things you love, 

the things you are, the things you never want to lose"

"Ais Kacang" is one of the most famous desert in our country, Malaysia, especially during those hot and sunny days. But do you people know that this "Ais Kacang" created two memories in my life that I am going to share with you, my reader in this post.

AIS KACANG Story #1

When I was still a kid, Ais Kacang is always my favourite food. Whenever I was asked to write my own personal details in school, my favorite food column will always be Ais Kacang. Why ? It is the trick my grandparents and parents always used to make myself happy. During that period, our family lived in poverty, unlike now. Understand ? Human will always fight for two things, (1) love and (2) money and my parents and grandparents used to quarrel at that time since a lot of time, money was not enough to support us, even our family is not that big. Since I was kid, crying was the best option for me to express my sadness.

But thankfully,when I started to cry, everything will just stop. And a bowl of Ais Kacang can make everything to be just a past. Everyone will shared a bowl of Ais Kacang, even a single bowl it was more than  enough. But, when I started to grow up, the financial condition of my family is getting better and better. Everyone started to care just for their own life. The grandparents used to go for vacation, the parents used to busy with their career, the sister chose to further her study in another town and left me alone in the house.

Whenever we went for Ais Kacang again, the taste and feeling was not the same anymore. Now, everyone had their own bowl (it was affordable), just like our life, we were not sharing our life anymore, because we were too obsessed with money and kept ourselves busy.

AIS KACANG Story #2

Family is always #1 in my heart. And #2 will be friends. I used to have only a few friends back in my school time. I almost lost my confidence over friendship until I met this friend. He gave me my another story of Ais Kacang. He was the only one that I felt comfortable to talk to, so nevertheless, he knew everything about me and my family. He learned about the story of Ais Kacang in my family and I was totally shocked when there was one day, he bought me Ais Kacang. He told me, not only my family members can give me happiness, but as a friend, he is able to do it too. That was the first time when the Ais Kacang 'feel' came back to me. We used to eat Ais Kacang every Friday, and able to spend almost the entire afternoon at the stall, to discuss and exchange our weekly stories. I believed that was what friendship meant in someone life. But, now, this friend was no longer here with me, since his God love him more than I do. 

Why I write about this today ?  Haha !!! This is because: today as usual, the first week of the month, salary week, together my friend and I went to eat expensive food (yummy!!!) and I ordered Ais Kacang. When my friend found out that I didn't finish up my Ais Kacang, she scolded me and asked me to finish it. I explained to her, the reason and she cried. She asked me to share my story with people. I didn't wish to post it in Facebook but I choose to post it here and so whoever is fortunate, they will has this opportunity to read this post and be a part of my listener (padahal, reader).

I am sure, none of friends has ever notice that, I like to order Ais Kacang whenever it is in the menu list. But, I always unable to finish it. The Ais Kacang that I eat now, although it is still sweet and colourful but it doesn't mean anything to me anymore.

So do you have a food that bring so much memories for you ? Share it with us. ^.^
Thank you, J, if not because of you, this story will not appear here. Sweet ^.^

听你说，我的朋友

听你说

生活中，会有几个人，会慢慢的听我们的说话呢。。。

谢谢你，和我分享这首歌，我的朋友

你说。。。

                我听。。


听你说 （歌）

郁：我很開心因為努力生活　和你們分享榮耀的每一秒鐘

如果難過你肩膀最遼闊　你幫我帶走烏雲滿布的天空

如果生活少了有你陪我　我整天開著手機也感到失落

因為我們都最想看到彼此燦爛的笑容

林：我懂星座卻沒有人像我　真的喜歡一個人安靜的自由

我做的夢我堅持做到最後　就算我爬到雲端也繼續做夢

我唱的歌只希望能快樂　其他的我也不想要想的太多

因為我們都最想擁有自己最真的感動

郁：聽你說　聽你說　我們同時擁有一個真心的朋友

要日出日落　因為有夢　所以更認真生活

林：聽你說　聽你說　我們真實擁有一片美好的天空

不能常聯絡　卻更緊握　我們交換的美夢　只想聽你說

我懂星座卻沒有人像我　真的喜歡一個人安靜的自由（郁：呼嗚嗚）

我做的夢我堅持做到最後　就算我爬到

合：　雲端也繼續做夢

郁：我唱的歌只希望能快樂　其他的我也不想要想的太多（林：吼喔喔）

因為我們都最想擁有自己

合：最真的感動

聽你說　聽你說

郁：我們同時擁有一個真心的朋友

要日出日落　因為有夢　所以更認真生活

林：聽你說　聽你說（郁：聽你說）

我們真實擁有一片美好的天空（郁：呼嗚嗚嗚）

不能常聯絡　（郁：卻更緊握）

合：我們交換的美夢　只想聽你說（林：嗚喔喔）

郁：聽你說　（林：　聽你說）

我們同時擁有一個真心的朋友

林：要日出日落　因為有夢　（合：所以更認真生活　吼）

合：（郁：聽你說　聽你說）　我們同時擁有一片美好的天空

（林：不能常聯絡）（郁：卻更緊握）

我們交換的美夢　只想聽你說


谢谢你，与我分享。。。^.^