Dilemma

It's surprising that something that can be finished within three weeks had been postponed till today. Oh no !!! I haven't started yet. Reason = the algae is not under healthy condition. 

Sometimes, I do believe that I'm working with an unpredictable human being. Even though, I heard numerous rumors about how bad this person was before, but I still don't judge him the way others do. 

I do believe if without his guidance, my journey will go smoothly but now, everything become a mess. If I am independent & can do my work without caring for his words, I think I'm now already reaching the harvesting stage. But, in reality, nothing happen yet.

"You been doing well, but this really disappointing me" 

This sentence keep spinning in my brain for these two days. I started to doubt my ability to do works and making plan. Starting from the first day, I stepped into it, I knew that, there will be no return back. "You have the love, care and interest but there is no passion".

Wow !!! It's really shaking me up. Am I losing my interest to continue with my project ? Am I thinking that my project is a burden ? 

Hopefully, I can find back that "me" a.s.a.p. It's really sad that I can't join the rest for the party. But for the sake of all things, I have no choice, I have to stay. Because I love them.

If the algae is blooming within this four days, it will be a good news for me but if it didn't, ......T.T